Reminds me of a little piece I wrote some months ago.
”The sky was gray and the rain was pouring down.
My body was heavy and the contractions around my heart intense.
The resistance felt like a wet blanket, but as I kept walking and breathing,
my dance-teachers words were ringing in my ears: ”everything you put in motion, will eventually change into something else”.
After I while I came to a crossroad where I always turn to the right.
But all of a sudden I heard a small voice in my heart saying: ”turn to the left”.
I stopped, feeling confused. Why would I turn left?
I always pick the right road, because it leads to a lovely view with a an amazing horizon.
And this horizon always expand my perspective, something I clearly would benefit from right now, in my disconnected state.
But the voice in my heart was persistent.
”Turn to the left!” it kept saying.
”OK then”, I answered, a bit annoyed.
As I walked on, a white rabbit came jumping out of the woods.
It´s movements was totally effortless and breathtakingly elegant.
In a flash of an eye, I remembered the white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland and The Matrix.
Follow the white rabbit.
And so I did.
All of a sudden it stopped, looked me right in the eye for what felt like a million years.
I sensed its presence, aliveness and innocence as my own.
Then it turned, jumped back into the woods and disappeared.
At the same time, the sun came out of the clouds for the first time in weeks.
And my heart cracked open.
Next to an old thee, I cried like a baby for almost an hour, before I slowly walked back home.
This time, my heart guided me to an unexpected teacher: the white rabbit.
If I would have turned to the right, I would have missed it.
Of course something else would have showed up sooner or later, and my numbness would dissolve, one way or the other.
Still: the heart is such a potent compass and if we listen, it takes us to places we cannot imagine.
So whenever you get stuck, always follow your heart!
To night I will watch the The Matrix, and tomorrow Alice In Wonderland.
Lets´see what will come out of that!”